Thinking of you tonight Aunt Essie. I will never forget the time you asked my parents if you could take me for awhile to stay with you. I will always wonder if that would have turned my life around. You raised some really good kids, whose lives have really gone well. I know my parents loved me, but it just seems like our family was derailed when my Mom had her stroke. We never really recovered from that, and I think, if they had let me spend time with you, you'd have straightened my life out. I'd have probably put up a fuss for awhile, but I think I'd have come around, when I learned to equate discipline with love. I miss you Aunt Essie!

I've had several incidences of synchronicity lately, since I started paying attention again, that I did not log. But I'm starting tonight.

01/06/2018 Bachelor's Grove Cemetery haunting. I was looking this up within the last couple of days, then it showed up on my FB timeline.

01/11/2018 The Cup Song. I've been playing it on Youtube lately a few times, and then I heard it used on a commercial!

Same date an instant one. I saw an Italian name Giovanni on FB. I remembered Louie once called himself that, not to be identified. Curious, I looked up Luciano Lipari on FB, and as I was opening his page. Someone on tv said "Ciao Bella", something he once said to me.

01/15/2018 Bynx and Midnight got out last night, and I've been worried about them, due to the cold. Ok now, they got out on Ronnie today, and she claimed that she told Midnight to go get Bynx, so he did. Anyway I went on FB, and the first thing I saw was a gif I posted a few years ago with a dog carrying a cat into the house. And it was captioned.."Do you have troulbe getting your cat inside"?.

01/16/2018 Saw Mark Zuckerberg on MSNBC, and looked down at my FB feed, and saw a post where Mark is quoting MLK>

01/18/2018 Saw something that Lucy M shared on FB, then one of the answers on Wheel of Fortune was Dominican Republic.

01/29/2018 I guess I haven't caught anything in a few days, but I have one from last night. I was sending a message to my new cousin Kay, explaining about how Juanita gifted me the DNA test that lead to my finding her. I looked up at the tv in the middle of all this, and the Ancestry commercial was on, showing the woman who found out she had native American blood. Honestly, I wish I paid more attention. There are probably dozens of things a day I miss.


02/11/2018 Saw a man on a paranormal show on Destination America, getting attacked by a huge swarm of hornets, than on FB saw a crazy man climb on a ladder and grab a hornets nest under the eaves and squash it with his hand. Crazy

02/26/2018 Been neglecting to come here for awhile. This is a really weird one. I've seen posts on Facebook pertaining to "Kinder-eggs", and how they are a candy treat for kids that, for some reason, are banned in the US. Thought that was strange and that they looked tasty. Found one that someone had thrown out in the yard just now. Just the shell. Never seen one before in my life.

Well it's been an uneventful, but blissful weekend. I've managed to stay in a pretty good place. Enjoying the pleasant weather. It's not too hot and not too cold. It's Father's Day and I've been enjoying sweet memories of Angelo. I'm experiencing that blissful feeling, like when he was here in the physical realm with us, even if only experiencing it as a memory, it still feels sweet. I look forward to seeing signs today that he is near. I love you always Angelo! Happy Father's Day!

How do you know when you are in love? What is it about one person that blows you away, when another person doesn't. You might have more in common with the second one, but you feel nothing. I keep thinking about Bobby and I really regret letting him slip through my fingers. Don really wants me, we have so much more in common, than Bobby and I do. But there is absolutely no spark. Ronnie tells me that he is mad and butt hurt that I spurned his affections. I was having fun going to the concerts, but when he would touch me, I got creeped out. Back when I dated Don before, I thought it was just because I still had feelings for Angelo. But now I realize he just really turns me off. He's furious at me about that, and really lit into me a few weeks ago. He basically said I was damaged and not able to handle an adult relationship. Ok, Don whatever keeps your fragile ego intact. Believe what you like, but you should be mature enough to know that not everyone is going to find you attractive, no matter who you are, and that women that don't are not necessarily emotionally messed up in some way. And I know he isn't exactly falling head over heals for me either. He just thinks I'm attractive, and he likes me breasts, so I meet his standards for a girlfriend. I don't feel any more passion from him than I do for him. I think at first it was that way with Bobby. He was just choosing me because I was handy. But I think that changed at some point. I caught him looking at me one morning, just as I woke up, and he way he looked at me gave me serious butterflies. It wasn't just lust. It was a longing. I don't know why I didn't give him a chance. Probably one of the many stupid decisions I've made in my life, and I can't take it back now, because he's with someone else. Actually, he's been with 2 women since I left town. But I am definitely out of the running forever. I found that out quite by accident some months back, when Danny was borrowing my phone to play FB games on my account. I remember hearing say "oops!" and I asked him what was wrong. He said, I just accidentally added Bob Ogilvie on your FB. His name was coming up often,under "People you may  know", and Danny hit it accidentally. Anyway, after that, I couldn't help but check and see if he accepted me. It really hurt when I saw that he had not only declined the friend request, but he blocked me from sending any more. Ouch! After that I was wishing somehow I could tell him that it was only an accident, and I would surely never send another request, so he didn't need to block me. I, in fact, never meant to send the first one. Not that I wouldn't have liked to,but just felt he was sworn to hate me for all eternity. Well at least I'll never have to leave New England to be with him. I love New England, and Florida doesn't do it for me. It's too hot. And they don't have the beautiful Falls like here. Well I won't ever have to make that choice. Maybe I can find someone here, who strikes my fancy. Sure having no luck though. I've met 4 men in the 2 years I've been here, and something was wrong with every one of them. I don't think there is a worthwhile man on OkCupid or Tagged. I just keep meeting losers and at least one perverted creep.

My Beloved Tiger

Tommie, You loved Tiger with all you had. You had a good run of 18 years. But, he is gone and you can't fix that. Agonizing over his last few days of life will not help him, it will only hurt you. No amount of magical thinking will turn back the clock and give you another go at saving him. He did not want to die and you certainly didn't want him to but he did.  This is an eternally irrevocable truth. You desperately need to keep your mind off him so that sick feeling in the pit of your stomach will hopefully subside. Your reaction to grief is self-destruction. You can say that he is with Angelo, Taz, Caesar, Nero, Houdini, and the rest of them, but at this point that doesn't comfort, because you're not sure. Try to keep the images out of your head, You can't rewrite what happened. You can't Tommie. You can't You can't. Goodbye to my so very precious Tidy bowl. Please forgive me for all the ways I failed you, and be with Angelo, and all our family. Danny and I will be along. I love you with all my heart. Your Mommy Tommie.

Tidy, It's been almost a year since my heart was broken by your loss. I love you as much as ever. I miss you so much and am still in pain. Our family feels incomplete without you. There's a big, gaping hole in my life and Danny's. I can't seem to let go. I'm so grateful that for the few pictures I have and the short video of you bathing. Too few, though, to chronicle and 181/2 year life. Midnight went through a rough time too. He kept staying outside waiting to see and and when he was in the living room he'd stare into the dining room constantly, waiting for you to emerge from the corner. We do have another kitty now, but this hurt will never heal. His name is Bynx and he's a little livewire. He's made my Summer stressful but delightful. He never seems to run out of energy. He's a real cuddle bug too, like you. We love our Midnight, but cuddles were never his thing. They play and rough house together, and Midsters still has a lot of stamina, but kitten wears him out. When he gets enough he starts hissing and Bynx knows it's time to stop. I lost you on the 20th of July, which was a Wednesday. This year, it will be on a Thursday. Hard to believe its been that long. It seems like only yesterday, you were curled up on my lap, purring. Danny and I are constantly remembering that little grunting sound you used to make.  If and when Danny and I find a place here to live, I want to bring you with us and bury you on our own property with a memorial. I hope you are with Angelo, and waiting for us. I'm hoping to find a place near where he's buried, so we can all be close. Love you Puddy, Mommy

My other blog was getting long so this is a continuance. I love my backyard. Its huge, with a tall white fence and very shady, thanks to my 2 big shade trees. I have sliding glass doors that open onto a patio. Decks seem to be the thing, anymore, but I love having a nice old fashioned patio. Of course, I need to find time to go out and guy an outdoor grill. I really prefer charcoal, because it adds a nice flavor to the meat. Can't wait to have some steak kabobs!!! I am so so excited about my new home and there is so much more to do. having a blast every day!!!! Every night I marvel at how comfy my bed is and how prettily my room is decorated!! I'm normally a gadabout but I am enjoying so  much just staying home. Just being at and enjoying my own home, it's hard to drag myself away!! I'm thinking of buying a second home eventually. I mean I have so much money I could own 5 if I wanted to. But I saw a pretty awesome house right in my old neighborhood in San Mateo, at 922 Norton St just a few blocks from the house I grew up in on Ocean View. I'll post pictures if I can. It seems that I'm getting quite a few pageviews today. I wonder, are these real people viewing my page? If any humans are reading what I'm typing, would you let me know? I'm just curious about how this works. I know some of my pageviews are just me looking at my own blogs, but it can't be all just me. Too many.

Everything is wnderful! I have so much money now that I don't know what to do. Money comes to me constantly from multiple sources. Everything always works out for me. I have a beautiful Victorian Home. with a huge front porch, a big yard, both back and front. A huge shade tree in front of the house and one in back. Inside it is light and airy. It s the perfect size house for me, 3 bedrooms and 2 full baths. Danny can stay with me and go to school. The walls are painted in either white or pretty pastels. My room is done in a light peach. I have a queen sized tempurpedic bed, and it's like sleeping on air. The bedroom set is white and it is so so pretty!!. My area rugs and bedclothes are beautiful from Garnet Hill. My bathroom has a walk-in shower that I love. It's also in the peach. and everything is decorated like you're at the beach. I have french doors that open onto a small balcony. I love to have breakfast there sometimes. In my living room, I have a great sofa, pictured below, A HUGE Screen tv.  I have a big, overstuffed sofa with pretty accent pillows. My backyard is big. I'm tempted to get a tent and camp out there on hot nights. I also have a great patio. I've always liked a patio better than a deck. I love to bbq out there often, and have friends over, and nothing can beat sitting out on my front porch on a lazy summer evening, watching the fireflies. I'm being spoiled rotten and I love it!! And I am in excellent health! I now weight 120 pounds and I look and feel like a new person! I'm so glad it's Summer and we can have some fun! We're going to go to Mystic Seaport and see the sights for a few days, Really excited about that. I'm also thinking of buying an RV so we can travel the country. Also considering a second house in California, where we can spend the Winter in a warm climate. I've been able to give my friends and family  a lot of money. Some that have helped me out in the past and some that just need help. I'm looking forward to backyard cookouts with friends this Summer, now that Danny turned around and came back from Oregon. I was able to fly him out. A couple of weeks ago I was distraught and in mourning because he left me. but am happy now!!!!! Bubba's back!! And he loves loves loves the house!!!! Danny will be starting school in the Fall. He wants to be a video game designer, but right now we are just enjoying the Summer! I'm so glad that I have money now. I can just let him go to college and study without having to worry about working too. I love all this shopping I get to do for the new place!!! And I'm also booked at an adorable B&B in Salem MA for the entire month of October! Haunted Happenings is high on my list of fun things to do this year!!! I'm a big kid who goes cuckoo for Halloween!!!